defining sadness

define sadness…

my sadness?

its when i look something to do fo me not to feel that something’s eating me inside. haha

its when i just dont feel like doin anything.

its when you look for that someone but u cud never find.

its when you wake up, but just want to sleep again to let the days pass by until you get over the pain. but then ure afraid to sleep again.. coz you keep seeing him in ur dreams.him waiting for a girl.his fon full of girls name.

its when you cant smile anymore. the true smile your lips make.

its when you smile at yourself thinking of silly things you do w him.

its when he doesnt know your hurting.

its when you realize… thats all you are to him.

its when youre sick. inside and out. you like being sick to lose weight, but you wnt to get well coz the more you get sick, the more you feel theres no one taking care of you.

its when you have so many questions. you have answers but its biased. your answer stays in favor of him, for you to not hate him. (is that biased to him or to me?? hehe)

its when you pretend you dont look for him, practicing not to hurt.

its when he makes you feel he’ll never leave, but the next thing you knew… he left already.

its when i wait but no one came.

its when you love. you love. you love. then being left.